The way I look at this, having grappled with this problem before.
If you believe that you and he were Always...perhaps you are correct. But perhaps you are simply getting too caught up in the idea of individual identity. Love is Always. You are Always. But the specific faces of love, the specific expressions of love...those vary. Is what you had then different than what two other people had? Or is it -all- Always?
To you, the difference between him and someone else is obvious and incalculable, but that is because you are viewing it from your own perspective. But on the scale of Everything, it is just different faces on the same idea.
I have no clue if this makes any sense to you, but this possibility allows for you to find what you have lost again. With someone else. Just as I have found it myself.
The error, to me, is in thinking there is just one for you to love, when really there is All. It is you who makes the distinction, and you who chooses this one over that one. You have never lost or gained anything.
A way out
If you believe that you and he were Always...perhaps you are correct. But perhaps you are simply getting too caught up in the idea of individual identity. Love is Always. You are Always. But the specific faces of love, the specific expressions of love...those vary. Is what you had then different than what two other people had? Or is it -all- Always?
To you, the difference between him and someone else is obvious and incalculable, but that is because you are viewing it from your own perspective. But on the scale of Everything, it is just different faces on the same idea.
I have no clue if this makes any sense to you, but this possibility allows for you to find what you have lost again. With someone else. Just as I have found it myself.
The error, to me, is in thinking there is just one for you to love, when really there is All. It is you who makes the distinction, and you who chooses this one over that one. You have never lost or gained anything.